you know there is one thing ive always wanted to say to that special someone, but i have never been given the opportunity to an i fear that i will never get the chance.

like seriously what if i died and the one thing that i needed to say to that one person cant be said to them they cant hear it from me and actually know what im feeling.
or what if i cant find the right person to tell what will happen?

it shits me cause i always feel like i have something incomplete in my life. will i always for the rest of my life feel like saying it to someone? im just scared what if it was the wrong person i would feel so.. so dead inside.

well i guess this is were i tell you what these words are so you understand how i am actually feeling.
have you ever felt like saying:
'i cant live without you'
to someone?
because if they broke your heart and left you forever you would feel so cut wouldn’t you?

like if your in a relationship and everyday you wake up next to the person who means everything to you and then one day they just leave you! you would be saying why! what the hell did i do?

i just encounter this feeling of not knowing and what if i never get to encounter it, it would just be like a big gaping hole in my life. something so incomplete, something everyone wishes they had

i think about all the boys i have liked, i thought i loved one of them, the rest i kinda knew it wouldnt work but i still tryed. what if i had said it to them? i thought i knew what i felt about them, but things change, people move on. im sure it wouldnt have been the end of the world, but it sure would have felt like it.

omg i feel like crying now ):

it would be nice to have someone who makes me happy when im sad, call me up in the middle of the night just to tell me they love me, hug me just because they want to, drive across town to pick me up and get there and ive already left; but they dont get angry, pulls me closer and doesnt let go when im scared.

SOME guys are heartless...


...SOME not all